Why Do I Continue to Crucify The Son of God ?

Disclaimer: I know nothing. It is not this author’s responsibility to convince or even suggest any individual believe what is written here, it is the sole responsibility of each individual to decide what their journey means to them. This author understands all things are a form of energy, only in the illusionary world made by the I Ego.

KJV Acts 9:4 ” And he fell to the earth, and heard a voice saying unto him, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? “

This story in Acts is about the Son of God who was blind or asleep in a dream state and was awakened by the Light aka Christ aka Holy Spirit.

From this junction on Paul knows who he really is. Paul had been crucifying himself every time he was persecuting others. For all are one which is the Son of God.

The I Ego aka con man convinces you by telling you pleasure is found in your flesh. The trick is pleasure in the flesh only leads to pain and death. To clarify, death is the continuous cycle of the ( illusion ) dream state.  

KJV Romans 8:10-14 ” And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness. 11 But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. 12 Therefore, brethren, we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live after the flesh. 13 For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live. 14 For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.’


Paul realized it is the mind that needs to be resurrected. The flesh is the illusion made by the I Ego aka wrong mind of Christ and by denouncing the flesh aka illusion we find the truth in Christ`s resurrection.

I have been experiencing a cleansing of the I Ego, for this author it starts with forgiveness and understanding the true meaning of this. When I started to really examine my thoughts it became clear I was crucifying my brothers and sisters through the projection of the flesh and what I thought their motives were.


As I continued to judge them it became clearer how I was really judging myself through how I was projecting them according to their actions and visual appearance. This became very frustrating and somewhat humorous when I would instantly know it was happening as I realized how meaninglessness my thoughts were. 

I say meaningless due to knowing who we really are and how this illusion had me trapped. I now continue to work on seeing beyond the flesh and accepting all as a Son of God and my brother. ( gender is only used to clarify spirit as one if you like you can use daughter or sister  )

Christ showed the flesh was meaningless through the resurrection of the mind and crucifying only comes from the I Ego.

Infinite Love,

Jack Shea
“Finding Truth”


“Knowledge is knowing which enables you with the power to know the truth about love.” ( John Michael )


“Fear when eliminated opens up many doors. Love when understood keeps those doors open.”